Part of my manga-and-anime-viewing lifestyle is that I Have Not To Search For Spoilers. I like surprises; and if I have to spoil the story, I want to actually read it by downloading scans. However, my curiosity is subtly being supported by my sister who is always searching for spoilers. She told me one thing she thought I already know even thought I actually didn't, yet.

ME: ... WHAT?? You... why did you tell me this? I do not want to know!
SISTER: But you already knew this! I told you already! I'm quite sure...
ME: *unequivocal look*
SISTER: ... or not. Sorry? é_è

That was one of those huge spoilers of doom, ones that should shock you utterly and completely. That's why I don't search for spoilers - but end up at some point being inevitably spoiled. Damn.

Okay, time to forget about it and move on. That's totally possible (...maybe): meanwhile, Vampire Night vol. 6 has eventually been published in Italy! And I fell the urge to write some comments, since the next volume will be out in March and I have to wait three months.
( Vampire Knight vol 6: spoilers and fangirling )

So things like this really happen! In June, Makoto Shinkai was in London with his amazing movie Byousoku 5 Centimeter. And he did an interview! And he signed autographs! And he made doodles while autographing!
Agh, too bad I'm Italian and didn't know of it sooner ;_; Visiting London, and seeing Byousoku 5 Centimeter on big screen would be great.

I was taking my exams at the time but, well, maybe I could-- flake off? Thought my mum would have killed me. With the help of my dad. But my wild imagination keeps me going!

I was surfing the web and stumbled on this website, Dreamscape. Such cute graphics! And then, I noticed the avatar used within the last entry.

(by Dreamscape)

My reaction: "Oh my, is that CLAMP? I recognize the style... Could it be... Fay? Well, no, it can't be. I'm too CLAMP-aware. My CLAMP-radar is surely mistaken!"

Ten minutes later, I found out by chance that it was CLAMP. It was Fay. I had never seen that image before. (My love is one-sided, though. CLAMP, I'm still waiting for the end of X, dammit, you and your publishing issues!)

These days I keep having these thoughts. Lots of thoughts that lead to the same conclusion: fandom is crazy, therefore fandom is cruel.

I happily brows through DeviantArt pretty often and I'm enraptured by the awesomness of lots and lots of fanarts. So you can easily figure out how they lured me, winking at me and poking me to make me take a look at those manga which I haven't read yet. My mind was all "If the fanart is awesome squared*, then the manga itself should be interesting enough, shouldn't it?".
Well, I was so curious about Katekyo Hitman Reborn that I gave it a try a while ago. I stopped after the first volume because I didn't find the story that interesting; but now I keep stumbling on random awesome fanarts and I can't help asking myself: "what if the story gets really better after the first volume?" ;_; (which is totally possible; D.Gray-man is the proof of my lingering fear! It keeps getting way better!)
The other thing that pokes me to read it is, well, I might have a slight crush on Hibari. And there's this-- kind of huge chick-- or hibird, as it may be called. SO CUTE.
Nobari no Ou is another one. I feel I should give it a try, too. Those cute fanarts and icons out there...

The moral, you may want to know? Fandom is crazy, makes delirious yet wonderful fanarts, I fall in love, then check the original artwork... and I feel so betrayed. Therefore, fandom is cruel. (But I love fandom. Oh, I do, I do.)

* I humbly apologize for the out-of-context  shoebox_project's quote. I fell in love with 99% of what is written there. I'm trying to recover.

So, I FOUND IT.

Or should I say them? Searching by the not so famous but highly satisfactory Strategia of Pollicino (TM! XD) learned from t_jill, I now have a bunch of wonderful Sirius/Remus fics which are so worth reading I'm ashamed I didn't find them before. I discovered a couple of writers and I'll love them to death until my poor brain decides it's time to stop being so mono-thematic (even if I fear that time will never come).

I relly had the need to read some Wolfstar things. It seems like I've been neglecting this pairing too much... but now, off to Draco/Harry!

What could a humble, should-definitely-study-and-not-sit-in-front-of-her-laptop, slasher girl do to find a tender (but not too tender, we want some action!) Sirius/Remus fanfiction, in order to make a surprise to one of her best friends? ;_;

I feel completely drained from searching.

It's so sad when your favorite fic writer decides to leave the ficdom (just a couple of months after you discovered and fell in love with her works), and you realise that all fics and translations will be gone.

I'm becoming quite sentimental, damn me ;_;